Uppdaterad: 19 nov 2020
I woke up and realized I lived in a motorhome.
What I had planned to be something temporarily, ended up to be my reality 24/7..
Me & Frankie, a black poodle and a white Hymer motorhome.
How did it happen?
I left my home by the beach, 1 hour from Stockholm in july, after another argument about alcohol...
I thought if I disappear for a few weeks it could be like a wake-up-call...
But it didn´t work out that way.
I understood that I can only be
responsible for me. I can never change anyone else.
I changed my mindset, slowly..
How do you change the way you think about yourself, your loved ones, your past, your present and your future?
Well, you don´t do it overnight.
I started to take control slowly over my thoughts and feelings through a great book, "the unthethered soul, the journey beyond yourself" written by Michael A Singer
I needed to be aware of HOW my history limited me in all situations.
I listened to great podcast´s
I also found my PT in awareness through Ad adventum
I started to dream again, halleluja!
Gratitude is the key for great lemonade
I became grateful for having a motorhome to stay in while I was in a war with my feelings, my thoughts and my limited believes..
Why did it scare me in the beginning, to keep living in our motorhome?
You don´t do that. You stay. You work it out. In your real home. Behind the facade. Together...
But what if the "together"-thing doesn´t work for me anymore?
I started to accept my own truth and let go of guilt, shame and everything that others tried to apply on me.
I needed to learn how to stand in my decision whatever stormy emotions I met.
How magical is life in a motorhome november in Sweden..?
Not at all...
I rather dream of something warmer. Why not Portugal..
I started to follow an inspirational Swedish couple, Anna & Roger and their LIFESTYLE BLOG
They´ve lived permanently in their motorhome since 2018 and their dream is to find a TinyHouse in Portugal. Follow them for great inspiration!
I came to the conclusion that if my situation is to be durable in the long run, I need to go south where it´s warmer. I started to dream of driving to Portugal!
I´ve never been driving through Europe, can I do that?
Oh, yes I can!
If other people does it.
I can do it.
Frankie may be my map reader.
Let´s make a Dreamy Portugese Lemonade!
See you soon and Take care out there.
Kram från Feelgoodtanten